Advice
A tough call
Consider many questions before taking a drastic step
Michael,
Like the guy who recently wrote you, I found out last month that my boyfriend Chris was regularly hooking up on Grindr.
My best friend is urging me to dump Chris.Ā He says, āonce a cheater, always a cheater,ā and I think heās probably right.Ā If Chris broke our agreement to be monogamous and lied to me, how can I know he wonāt start cheating again?
I was puzzled that you didnāt tell the other guy to definitely dump his boyfriend for cheating.Ā Isnāt there some clear line beyond which certain behaviors are just not forgivable?Ā Donāt people in relationships owe it to each other not to be mean or hurtful?
Aside from this huge disaster, weāve had a good relationship. Although considering what Iāve learned, I wonder how much of it was real. Chris is saying that having his cheating come out into the open is making him look at his behavior and want to change.Ā I wonder if this is possible.
Iām trying to figure out what to do and Iād appreciate your thoughts.
Michael replies:
My first suggestion is that you not make the decision to stay or go impulsively. Crises like this give couples an opportunity to clarify what’s important to them and how they want to respond when difficulties arise.
If you leave Chris because of his infidelity, would you be acting out of anger, to hurt him because he hurt you? The desire to retaliate is understandable, but if your goal is to have a caring long-term relationship, you need to develop the skills to resist that urge even when youāre badly wounded. Otherwise, youāre likely to end up in a cycle of hurting each other because youāve been hurt.
You could view this situation as an opportunity to become stronger. To learn how to soothe yourself under pressure, manage your reactivity and thoughtfully respond to your partner in a way that sets high standards for yourself. Of course, these are important skills to develop whether or not you decide to stay with Chris.
People have affairs and outside sex for all sorts of reasons, some of which have nothing to do with their partners and some of which do. Leaving Chris before talking about what led to his stepping out would prevent you from fully understanding and possibly working through what happened. Do you know if Chris was looking for affirmation? Feeling bad about himself?Ā Depressed? Curious about other guys? Horny? Simply not interested in a monogamous relationship even if he had agreed to it once upon a time?
Was your relationship or sex life stagnant? If so, how is Chris at bringing up and talking about difficult topics and how are you at hearing them? And vice versa?
If you decide to stay with Chris, also consider your reasons carefully. Are you afraid to be alone? Do you have good reason to believe Chrisās commitment to a monogamous relationship going forward? Might you be choosing to keep your eyes closed rather than see some hurtful truth about your boyfriend and the relationship youāve had?
Many of us fantasize that our relationship will be a place where we always cherish our partners and are always cherished by them. But reality is far more challenging and far more interesting.
Most of us go into relationships without really knowing what weāre doing. We often will let our partners down, sometimes in big ways, and weāll inevitably make mistakes. We all struggle with our own imperfections and those of our partners.
In this ongoing process, we might decide that we don’t want to deal with the particular imperfections of the person we’re with. If we choose to stay, we get the opportunity to learn how to make a whole-hearted loving commitment to a partner who isn’t going to give us everything we would like. This is the choice that you two now have to make.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with gay couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atpersonalgrowthzone.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it to[email protected]
Advice
How much fighting is OK in a relationship?
I love my boyfriend but we canāt agree on anything
Dear Michael,
How much arguing is OK in a relationship?
Sometimes I think Iād like to spend the rest of my life with my boyfriend Adam but other times he drives me absolutely crazy.
We get into these fights where he just refuses to see it my way. He insists heās right and digs in until I agree he has a point. He can never just agree with me or let it go.
The thing is, he doesnāt always have a point and if I wonāt concede that he does, he says I donāt respect his intelligence.
Our fights range from Madonnaās talent (or lack thereof) to what is or isnāt OK to eat for breakfast, to whose job it is to take out the garbage, to what the best abs exercises are, to where we should go on vacation this summer, to whether recycling plastics accomplishes anything, to whether we should have sex in the morning or at night. Iām sick of it!
On the other hand, Adam is smart, funny, and super-hot.
Is it normal for couples to fight so much? I donāt know why itās so hard for him to see it my way sometimes.
Michael replies:
Sounds to me like you guys are in an ongoing power-control struggle where one of you is continuously trying to influence the other (power move), and the other one is continuously refusing to be influenced (control move).
Thereās nothing āwrongā with making power and control moves. We all do them, all the time. Theyāre part of every relationship: Writing this reply, Iām making a power move, in that Iām wanting to influence the way you think about your relationship. If you disagree with me, youāre making a control move by not accepting my influence. No problem at all: You donāt have to let me (or anyone) influence you.
The problems arise when these moves become the ongoing operating system of your relationship. One of you keeps telling the other person how to behave or think, or what is ācorrectā; and the other wonāt agree, no matter what the issue. You each dig in. Warmth and collaboration go out the window. You canāt have a loving relationship when youāre mired in a power-control struggle.
The problem is not that you two see things differently. Thatās an unavoidable part of life. In any relationship, partners will at times have very different opinions, even about very important matters. The problem is that youāre choosing to argue about it, to try to prove that you are right and the other person is wrong. He wonāt see it your way and you wonāt see it his way.
Notice that Iām putting you in the same boat as Adam. Thatās because youāre joining him in this dynamic.
One thing you two can do to get out of this dynamic is to stop arguing about things that are a matter of opinion. Itās not possible to prove youāre right. Doing so just gets you dug in against each other.
In general, itās a waste of time to argue about why you are right and your partner is wrong. If you win the argument, your partner loses. And if one of you is the loser, you both lose because you wind up with a bitter relationship.
Instead, you could have fun enjoying the reality that each of you has very different opinions, even about very important things, and each of you has the job of figuring out how to live and generally be happy with someone who is different in some big ways from you.
If you each start letting yourself be influenced by your partner, even if you donāt always agree on whatās ābestā or āright,ā youāre going to open yourself up to all sorts of experiences, possibilities, and ways of looking at things that you hadnāt considered. Thatās one of the great ways that relationships push us to grow.
If you think I have a point, Iām glad. You may decide youād like to make some changes in your relationship. Remember, though, that Adam is his own person. Perhaps youāll be able to influence him to consider a new way of approaching your differences, perhaps not.
That said, you have a lot of power over yourself. And if you decide you donāt want to keep getting stuck in power-control struggles, you can change this dynamic on your own simply by not participating. Not in a game-playing, āIām right and youāre wrongā way, but by taking the position, over and over, that you two are different and sometimes see things differently, and you arenāt going to fight about who is right and who is wrong, because that isnāt going to get you anywhere good.
(Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].)
Advice
After 16 years together, my wife suddenly wants children
āI donāt want to be stuck in restrictive heteronormativityā
Dear Michael,
A few months ago you answered a letter from a guy who wanted a baby but his boyfriend didnāt. Iām in the opposite situation. Carol and I have been together for 16 years (weāre married) and all of a sudden she wants to have a baby. This was never on the table until her dad died last year suddenly of a heart attack.
Since then sheās been a different person. She tells me that she wants to focus on something ābiggerā than just enjoying life and also wants some sort of sense that ālife will go on.ā
To me, being queer has always meant that we get to fully live life in the present, for us. We donāt have to focus on having kids and all that entails: fertility stuff, sleep deprivation, diapers, babysitters, PTA obligations, college tuition, etc. Let straight people deal with those headaches while I enjoy myself.
I donāt want to be stuck in restrictive heteronormativity, giving my time and energy to a kid whoās going to go from crying to whining to tantrums to rebellion to not talking to me. And then expect me to pay their bills after theyāre 18.
And why crowd the planet even more? In my opinion, having a baby on this planet is selfish sentimentality.
Carol and I always saw 100 percent eye-to-eye on this issue but now sheās gone over to the other side. I have shared all of the above to shake some sense into her but havenāt gotten anywhere. This was not our agreement at all.
I know you canāt change someone else, but doesnāt she owe our relationship a commitment to the life we already agreed on? Iāve suggested grief counseling but she says no.
Michael replies:
No one owes their partner a commitment to not change. Itās a guarantee that we all change over time. Relationships challenge us to stay with someone as we both evolve in big and sometimes unexpected ways over the years. There’s no way around this challenge if you want to stay happily married.
Itās also true that you donāt have to keep living with someone who changes in ways you donāt want to accommodate. So, if Carol is certain that she wants to be a mom and if you are certain that you donāt, you can leave.
It makes sense that youāre sad and angry (putting it mildly) when your wife suddenly wants to completely upend your life. That said, youāre not going to improve your marriage by criticizing Carol or insulting her wish to parent. And if you pressure her to give up a deeply held wish, she will likely resent you.
Instead of these tactics, how about being curious regarding her desire to parent? What ābiggerā meaning is she hoping to get from life? How does she think her fatherās untimely death affected her, not just on this issue but possibly in other ways as well?
Thereās great value in being curious about our partnersā differences rather than contemptuous or critical. Thatās a path toward greater intimacy, in that we get to deeply understand the person we are spending our life with. While you may not stay with Carol, you still might want to have a close and caring relationship with the woman youāve spent 16 years with. Understanding her better might also help you make some peace with her desire to parent.
I also want to encourage you to consider that there are many ways to be gay, lesbian, queer ā to be just about anything. You could say itās āheteronormativeā to want to parent; but you could also view it as a common human (and non-human) desire that is unrelated to sexual orientation. Carol has different ideas for how she wants to live. This doesnāt mean that she is foolish.
Iām curious about why you have such an unrelentingly negative view about parenting and kids. Is it possible that you’ve had some tough experiences in your life that have shaped this view?
Iām not pushing you to change your mind, but you might consider talking with some parents to get some sense of what parenting, and children, are actually like.
You might open up your thinking, and your heart. You might decide you are willing to lean in Carolās direction, or you might not. In any case, I’m hopeful that you would get a more balanced picture of what parenting and childhood can be.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].
Advice
Should I divorce my husband for the hot new guy in our building?
Debating whether to leave or stay after the sex goes cold
Dear Michael,
Iāve been with my husband for 10 years and the sex is pretty much gone. It stopped being exciting a long time ago and pretty much the only time we ever do it is with the occasional third.
A really hot guy moved into our building about a year ago. We would see each other sometimes in the elevator or at our buildingās gym and we started talking and really hit it off. Mark is 15 years younger than I but we seem to have a lot in common. We started hooking up and the sex is amazing.
I havenāt told my husband because itās breaking our rule about no repeats. I have to say that the secrecy is hot. Itās kind of a thrill to take the elevator upstairs when I say Iām going on an errand. But itās more than that. I have a connection with Mark that is far more amazing than what I have ever felt with my husband. Not just the sex. We just enjoy being together, talking about anything and everything.
My husband went to visit his family last weekend and I spent the whole time with Mark. Since then I canāt stop thinking that I want to leave my husband and be with Mark.
Part of me thinks this is a crazy mid-life crisis. I mean, this kidās in a totally different place in life. But we have mind-blowing sex and a fantastic connection. Iād like your thoughts on how to proceed.
Michael replies:
Youāve got a lot to consider.
First: Sex with a long-term partner changes over time. It tends to be less about erotic heat and more about the connection with a person whom you love. In other words, itās being with the person youāre with that makes the sex meaningful and even great. Having a good sexual relationship with a long-term partner comes far more from a heart connection than from a crotch attachment.
Second: You seem ready to throw your relationship under the bus pretty quickly, without addressing other problems in the relationship besides sex. When you are sneaking around, lying, and rule-breaking , I donāt see how you can look your husband in the eye; and if you canāt look him in the eye, you certainly canāt have even a half-way decent relationship.
Yet another point to consider: Affairs pretty much always seem more exciting than marriage. The partner is new, which almost automatically makes the sex hotter; the secrecy is a thrill; and you donāt have to deal with paying the rent, house chores, and all the petty annoyances of living up-close with someone day-in, day-out.
You are bringing lots of energy to your affair, and everything about it is exciting. You are bringing no energy ā at least no positive energy ā to your marriage. You get what you put into a relationship.
Divorce is not something that should be entered into lightly. Be aware that if you leave your husband for Mark, you will no doubt find over time that the sex becomes less exciting and that the connection is not always fantastic. No surprise, 75 percent of marriages that begin with affair partners end in divorce. While I donāt think statistics predict what will happen to any particular couple, believing that you will have a significantly better relationship with your affair partner than you did with your husband sets you up for likely disappointment.
Many gay men focus on “hot sex” as the big draw, pursuing a lot of sex with a lot of men, and/or pursuing an ongoing series of relationships that last until the sex cools. If thatās what you want, thatās fine. But itās a different path from pursuing a close and loving long-term relationship, which involves knowing someone well and having him know you well; collaborating on getting through the hard stuff life throws at us; finding ways to make peace with disappointment; and consistently striving to be someone worth being married to.
How to proceed? While you are the only person who should make that decision, I would suggest that whatever your choice, keep in mind that marriage can be more than what youāve made of it, so far.
Michael Radkowsky, Psy.D. is a licensed psychologist who works with couples and individuals in D.C. He can be found online atĀ michaelradkowsky.com. All identifying information has been changed for reasons of confidentiality. Have a question? Send it toĀ [email protected].
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